Prior to January, my free time was spent watching ball games,reading Sports Illustrated and playing games on the computer. Butthen we bought one of those home-pregnancy tests. Now my free timeis filled with reading parenting magazines and stories like”Fatherhood – the Journey.”
I am going to be a dad for the first time. So I do all thetypical things. I took an online Fatherhood I.Q. quiz. Turns out,after answering questions like “How often are you supposed tofeed the baby,” I was – according to the results – somewherebetween “clueless and clued-in.” But hey, I’vegot five months to get ready.
The truth is I spend many nights pondering how this littleaddition is going to change our lives. I really worry about if Iwill be a good dad. I worry about what a good dad is. I know I hada good dad, but I am not exactly sure what made him good.
First, I have a responsibility to make sure my children know Ilove their mother. They need to see that we have a special, lovingunion. Also, I feel a responsibility to provide peace and securityin my home. To make sure my family is safe from not only physicaldangers, but also that there is stability – emotional,intellectual and financial. By fulfilling this need in the home, itwill allow my wife to fulfill her role as a mother andcaretaker.
I am not naïve enough to think I have the answers or that Iam fit to be the world’s best dad; I worry quite a bit abouthow I will do. Yet, I believe if I keep to my aforementionedresponsibilities, it will give my wife and I the best opportunityto provide the leadership our children need to navigate thislife.
As I lie awake at night and ponder my fatherly duties, I feel agreat sense of inadequacy. Not just to raise a child, but to helpfacilitate the development of a righteous person. I wonder how Ican do that. The truth is that my wife and I, working together,learning together, being a team.
That is all that we can do, the rest will be left up to time andexperience.